I have not posted in a long time as I have been dealing with emotions and daily life. 

I ended up in the Instacare on the Sunday before Memorial Day as I woke up with a major skin infection.  I was totally thinking that I would walk in to IHC and be handed a prescription for antibiotics.  I was so wrong.  I didn't want to wake anyone and was supposed to be at choir practice so everyone thought that I was at church.  I put on my walking clothes and walked to IHC.  I got in there and the Dr proceeded to tell me that she needed to drain the infection and put me on antibiotics.  So, she did cut in to the infection and then had to put a drain in it that I would leave in for 24 hours.  I left with the prescription but also with a 2" drain to keep my wound open.  It was a lovely experience.  It continued to drain for 5 days.  I went back in on Friday and was advised that I am a carrier of MRSA which is the antibiotic resistant skin infection.  They knew this because they ran a culture and I am very resistant to most Penicillin medications.  I have to admit it was pretty stressful to hear that as I have a nephew who has open wounds most of his life due to his genetic skin disorder EB.  No worries though, because I am already a social outcast with that family!

Work is still very stressful.  My boss has hired a new woman in the office.  She is very nice.  The entire office including the new woman leaves early on Monday's, but no worries, I am supposed to be "flexible". 

I have had many questions answered as I go thru therapy.  Answers that I never wish I would have received.  We watched The Vow this weekend.  At one point the actress that has been in a car accident comes home to try and recover her memory.  Her friends decide that they are going to throw a surprise party.  When she walks in she is completely overwhelmed because she has now been thrown into a room of people that she is supposed to remember but doesn't.  Her husband clears the home of the guests and she gets angry because she can't remember.  To be honest, that was a huge eye opening movie for me.  Because I do remember the most recent, but I don't remember the past, so when something does come up I too become overwhelmed.  This last weekend I had some memories that I kept asking "why do I know that?"  My family was very secretive, especially my parents.  There are things that I know that I shouldn't know. Things that I wouldn't know.  Except, they are things that I do know-answers to questions that I wish never would have needed to be asked.