I'm not going to lie, this year has been a hard one.  I have continued having therapy with Jade and that tends to be difficult.  He really makes me work hard.  I started on some new medication that makes my hands shake.  I can't stand it.  I have to ask myself is it worth not having the suicidal thoughts over the shaking hands.  I have had a lot of suicidal thoughts lately.  You girls need to know that I am living because of you.  Thank you for giving my life purpose.