So, a New Year, and a New ME!  I have to admit, I was a little anxious as I started this year.  This year brings a lot of uncertainty to me, things that I fear, things that could change my entire existance.  Every year is like that.  As I reflected on the New Year, I became discouraged with the "old" year, 2014.  I reflected on how hard I have worked to get to the point where I am today.  Then, I thought of how hard I have to work this year.  I have to admit, I got tired, I even became suicidal as thoughts raced thru my mind.  I texted Jade as I knew I needed to reach out to someone.  Normally he doesn't respond, and to be honest, I wasn't expecting a response, but he did answer.  He told me that I could do it!  He told me that I can't give up but to just "keep" enduring.  This is easier said than done for me. I read an email I received from my Bishop, on Hope.  Words cannot express how these two little acts of kindness literally saved my life.