I thought I could do it, I thought that I could keep my blog closed, but I can't.  I was confronted with a situation where someone thought that I was sharing a lot of information about my marriage on this blog.  This person meant well, but they did not understand the person that I am, they probably still don't really understand.  I am a very private person, there is a lot that someone that reads this blog and even if they went thru every day and tried to read between the lines, they would still not really know me.  They don't know how my marriage really is, because that is not something I share with a lot of people.  This blog is more about me, the trial I have been asked to carry, and my journey thru it. 

There are days where I am just not sure I can do this thing called life.  I have been having a lot of those days lately.  Today, I was texting a dear friend and she mentioned that she also had some longing that nothing could ever satisfy.  I asked her if she would ever be able to satisfy that longing.  She advised me that her therapist told her that that it is a lot like swiss cheese.  You can have a full life, but you will still have the holes.  Unfortunately, that is something that I can understand.  I hate that I can understand it.