I know I have been writing a lot this week.  I have had a lot going on in my head.  On Saturday, my therapist was the one that said I needed to keep telling myself I am a "good person".  Today, at work, my boss told me that I am a "good person" but that it wasn't enough, I needed to show him.  All day as he has talked to me, I have wondered, "how can I get out?"  I have had many suicidal thoughts today.  I have prayed for Heavenly Father to take this away.  My boss keeps telling me that I don't accept "accountability" or "responsibility" and that all I do is make excuses.  He asks me to read this article, it says "invest in yourself."  I feel like therapy is "investing in myself", but is it really enough.  I am not happy, so when does my "investment" pay off?  I am working so hard, trying to complete all of the tasks that are required of me.  Again, I feel like the burden is just too much.  This morning I woke up to find that my car had been vandalized.  Really!  One more thing, isn't it enough that I am the only one working in my home, that I am caretaker to a 6 year old that can't walk, that I am drowning in debt, that I am dealing with a mental illness that some days defeats me?  When is enough enough?