My last therapy session was cancelled.  It was a good experiment to see what happens when I go 2 weeks between sessions.  It did not go well.  I did some things last week that I needed to process with my therapist.  It was good because my therapist allowed me to text.  Usually there is no response and we discuss my texts in my next session.  However, this week the therapist responded which really helped me thru some rough patches.

I dropped out of the AMAC group due to some conflict of interest.  Realistically it was because the therapist started talking about her own sex life.  I freaked out and was triggered and it is not worth it for me to go back.  When I dropped out, I contacted the therapists supervisor and reported what had happened.  Needless to say, she apologized, however it then left the group wondering who it was that told.  I knew that my anonymity would be in jeopardy and so I have contacted the therapist to let her know that it was me.

My head hurts.  The budget does not look good.  My husband still doesn't have a job, and the mortgage is due. 

When I was not able to see my therapist I kind of freaked out on myself and started self injuring.  I even got to the point where I didn't care if I got an infection or not.  I think I am still in that stage.