Jade found me an opening to meet with him today.  I have to admit, I am very anxious.  My reaction to him being gone and not having another appointment until August 23rd is actually embarrassing.  He deserves to have a vacation with his family.  I am just sorry that it was even a big deal.  I have been thinking about my relationship with my Father versus my relationship with Heavenly Father as Jade brought up in our last session.  The Bishop has asked me to take a step back and look at Trust.  It really makes me sad to know how difficult it is to trust anyone, let alone my Heavenly Father.  I have read conference talks and scriptures, it sounds so easy, but in reality it is so hard for me to give someone else the controls.