I did it!  I told my parents about the abuse.  I didn't go into a lot of detail but just told them a little of what I had been going through.  We talked about forgiveness and where I stand with my forgiveness with my brother.  Some days I feel as though I can forgive and then other days I am angry and want nothing to do with him.  I am emotionally numb.  I have been working on my homework that Jade gave me, my inner child work.  It is not an easy task to accomplish.  There are still a lot of hurts that need to be healed.  I don't know how to get away from the emotional numbness.  I think that my head is trying to protect me.  I found out a lot about my Father.  He evidently was in to pornography.  He couldn't remember my brother being into pornography.  I remember my parents burning my brother's pornography on several occassions.  I guess that goes to show you that there are secrets everyone has.