I went to my session with Jade on Saturday.  We talked a lot.  He had me read my letters to my Dad.  He asked if I would be willing to send my letter to my Dad.  I told him "no".  I am not ready for that yet.  We talked about the Sabbath and again how I intellectually know that I am worthy to partake of the Sacrament, but not emotionally.  Jade brought up the fact that I needed to use my "wise mind" to get me thru the Sacrament.  We talked about the emotions that come with partaking of the Sacrament and how it really is an emotional thing to do but for me, I have to think of it as intellectually.

Jade asked about how my relationship is with my Bishop.  I have had some issues with the Bishop and so my relationship is not quite there.  Trust is very difficult for me.  I gave the Bishop 3 bills that he offered to pay.  When it got to the point that my Health insurance and my Car insurance was going to cancel, I couldn't wait for my Bishop to pay them.  So, I paid them.  I feel like he let me down.