I think I have been avoiding my emotions since Jade has been out of town.  It's almost like my emotions don't really matter.  It feels as though they are not even there.  I don't know how to fix it, and to be honest, it is very frustrating to me.  I don't understand.  I don't like feeling numb.  I know I should be feeling something but I just don't.  I have been numb for a very long time and it doesn't seem to be letting up.  Sometimes I will get an overwhelming amount of anxiety and I fight it back down because it is not the time nor the place for it to come. I really need some help sorting thru this.