Jade asked me to write every day and journal everything.  Last night, I had a break down.  I still struggle with what I have done in telling my parents.  Their attitude towards me has changed.  Yesterday they dropped off a month's worth of groceries, or so it seemed.  It was very nice, but not necessary.  After having some time to myself, I asked Heavenly Father how women know that they are a daughter of God?  I asked him how much longer I needed to go thru this particular trial.  I then opened my scriptures to D&C 50:5.  It talks about enduring to the end, and by enduring, I can gain eternal life.  I remembered my walk on Saturday.  Sometimes the road seems so long, and sometimes you make a turn and can't see the road in front of you.  Life is like that road.  Right now, my road seems long, and I have no idea where I am going.  I can't see my life in front of me right now.  I keep being told I need to hang on.  The only way I can do that is if I get the support that I need.  I am learning thru my homework, I don't know my needs and so often, my needs are not being met.  I still have that "let me do it by myself" attitude.  I don't know how to let someone else meet my needs.  So many of my needs were not met as a child.  It is very difficult to read thru the lists of needs that are usually met in my Child Within book.