OK, I totally thought that I could be done with this blog and close up my thoughts.  However, I cannot yet.

Last night I decided to join an Adults Molested As Children group.  OH MY HECK!  I did not think that my life was still affecting me so deeply.  I went to this group and felt as though I had been hit by a truck.  There was a "disclaimer" of sorts stating that things like flashbacks, nightmares, etc, could get worse from starting this group.  Well, that is awesome, I was sleeping thru the night already---NOT!!!  The thoughts of going thru this hell again is causing me a lot of anxiety.  As I sat and listened to the therapist read the description of one that "abuses" I recalled my brother.  I really felt as though I was crawling in my skin as I heard her read the statistics, the myths, the facts, and then to have to complete a questionnaire about where I am right now with intimacy---NICE!

I am still trying to figure out if I can do this.  This mountain seems so steep to climb.  I thought that I was doing so well, then I go to this group and the other women are leaps and bounds further than me.

I just don't know about this!