Today has been a rough day.  I had situations at both jobs that were not good situations to be in.  Being in the insurance industry, anything you say is binding.  There is something  I could have differently, but I didn't.  I was backed in to a corner.  I am not comfortable with confrontation.  I am tired of my "mental" issues being used as an excuse. 

I did some more reading from my AMAC class.  It brings up a lot of feelings that I am not sure that I like.  I do anything I can to avoid them, which means that I eat.  I don't want my body to be noticed.  I don't want to be attractive, even to my husband, it scares me.  I hate being scared. 

I have done hard.  I am done doing hard.