It has been a couple of days since I have blogged.  I have had a lot on my mind.  In my last post I asked if mental illness was a choice?  I am learning that I don't have a choice if I have bipolar or not, because trust me, if I did, I would not need a therapist or medication.  I became very suicidal on Wednesday and Thursday.  I finally had some time to myself and had a bubble bath.  As I sat in my bubble bath I had University Neuropsychiatric on the phone to help talk me thru what I was going thru.  My work has been really hard.