November is finally here.  A time to be Thankful for our blessings.  As I reflect on this blog, I am grateful that I have had the time to keep this up.  I pray that one day, someone will be able to see this blog and realize that I am a survivor.  That nothing could beat me.  It could have knocked me down, but I was never out! 

This week I have been asked to ask Heavenly Father 1 question per day and wait for the answer.  Yesterday I asked if I was able to forgive my brother even though he was dead?  I opened my scriptures and found 2 Nephi 9:17-20.  I realized that 1- I am not the judge of my brother, that is the Lord's job and I cannot take that away from him, neither do I want to, but now that is one less thing I have to worry about.  2-I learned that I need to heal from my shame.  My shame is actually affecting my relationship with God.  In this scripture he talks about bearing our crosses and then "despise" shame.  Well, I despise shame but I don't like to acknowledge it either.  That's why I am still going to therapy.