Today is another day where I have thoughts of Heavenly Father and my relationship with him.  I wish I could say that I believed that I was a daughter of God.  Instead, I just say it in the hopes that one day I will believe it.  I asked the Bishop if it was OK to be angry with God?  In searching for my answers I found that I am not angry, but I am hurt.  I am hurt that I prayed for safety and some nights I didn't get it.  I am hurt that I don't feel that inner peace that he promises to bring.  I am hurt that sometimes it feels as though I am trudging this road alone, and maybe that is what he wants me to do, I don't know. 

I struggle with prayer.  Why pray if no one is listening?  Really!  Right now, my financial situation is a mess, I have bipolar which is out of whack as I adjust my medication, I have several problems that I am facing.  I sometimes ask God, if he could move a mountain, why doesn't he move my mountain. 

I read today that we shouldn't really be asking God Why, but What is a more productive question.  Questions like, What am I supposed to be learning from this experience?