How do I feel abandoned by God?  That is the magical question this week from Jade.  I have been talking to my Bishop about some of my feelings but here, I can get my feelings out and not worry about what people think of me.  I must admit, I did let some of my real feelings out with my last email to the Bishop.  I hope he doesn't think less of me of the things that I wrote.  I don't know how to be angry with God.  He is someone that I cannot see which makes this very difficult.  There are billions of Heavenly Father's children all over the world, I am a particle of sand amidst a world of beaches.  Why should I matter?  Do I matter?  Maybe I need to go back to step one and find out again if there really is a God?  If my relationship with my Earthly Father mirrors my relationship with my Heavenly Father, I must really need some help.