My mind has been going 1,000 miles an hour this week.  I hardly sleep because it is so difficult to shut off my brain.  For some reason I have been terribly sad since my last therapy session, and I go again tomorrow. 

I think it is because I am sad for the times I was bullied.  I wanted to lock those images out of my memory and be done with them.  However, that is not possible when you are working on inner child work. 

I went to vocational rehab yesterday.  We talked about my job situation.  The specialist that was working with me told me that the "writing is on the wall" and that my boss "doesn't have a backbone to fire you."  That was hard to hear, but it was the truth.  I don't know what I am going to do, but it sounds as though I will be looking for another job. 

I totally believe that God will guide me to where I need to go and that things will work out the way he wants it to be for me.  I have to do the work, but let him do the rest.  I am not really good with that. 

There have been many times this week where I have just wanted to cry.  Sometimes the tears are there, and sometimes they are not, but inside I just feel sad.