I am going to admit, I have been isolating myself from my therapist.  I just haven't had any questions for him.  I haven't texted him in days, which always causes him some concern.  I guess I should just send him a text and tell him I am OK, but really, what does it matter?  It's not like he doesn't have other clients that need him more than I do.  I don't want to be like that little boy that cried "wolf" all those times, and then when there really was a "wolf", no one responded.  I must also admit, I have been isolating from everyone.  I just don't feel like talking.  I feel like all I do is speak negative and no one wants to be around a negative person, so I just stay to myself, unless I really need to go out, then I just dread being out.  Social interaction is very difficult for me, which before my mental illness, it was not a problem.  Now, I have anxiety, even going to church.  I feel like I am a different person than what I used to be.  I am so cautious of who I talk with because I am not comfortable with who I am.  There is such a stigma about mental illness.  I guess I have the stigma for myself because I don't really like who I am.  I do feel crazy, I do feel out of control, so I am what the stigma says.  It is just hard to accept.