I really do have a lot to be thankful for.  I don't want this blog to just be a downer.  Sometimes it may feel like that but that's because I do have a lot of stressors going on in my life right now.  My bathtub pipe broke and leaked on the woman below, my oven blew up, my car is leaking oil.  But, Becca is home safe from her trip, my gas is shut off in my oven so there is no danger there, and my family is alive and healthy. 

In my prior post I mentioned that I had a breakdown on Sunday.  It was really scarey.  I really needed to get out of my house.  I couldn't take it any more.  I was so stressed that I cancelled the Home Teachers, took a nap, stayed home with my kids, and made chicken noodle soup for dinner.  It ended up being a very low key day.  I really did let my bipolar get the best of me on Sunday.  I missed Abbey's last talk in Primary.  I missed her getting her Faith In God award.  She is a very forgiving kid, for that I am also truly grateful.

Because Sunday was so scarey, I didn't know what to do.  I became overwhelmed so fast.  I almost left my home.  I didn't think about calling UNI, I didn't think about texting my therapist, my bishop, or my friends.  I was literally going to run away.  I don't know if I would have returned or not because I really was not in a good frame of mind.