Blog post from 9/9

Lots going thru my mind this week.  In my last session with Jade he announced to me that he thought that I had Bipolar II.  He asked me to complete a questionnaire, so I did and found that I was Bipolar.  This meant that I was on the wrong prescription.  Jade then asked me to complete a release form so that he could talk to my psychiatrist.  I signed the form and gave it to him.  I called my psychiatrist the next day and she asked me to schedule an appointment but to also start a new prescription.  I started Lamotrigine last night.  It will probably take 2 weeks for me to notice anything differently. 

 

Jade usually doesn’t like to make any diagnosis.  I am grateful that he did in my case because he knows me much better than my psychiatrist.  I only had 2 little homework assignments this week, 1 was to sign the form for Jade to talk to my psychiatrist which I had to do ASAP according to Jade, and the next assignment is to exercise at least 2 times before my next session.  Bless his heart he said that for how hard I am working, we should have seen an improvement in my moods and I should be compensated for my efforts. 

 

When it came to my Bipolar diagnosis, I am still wondering, what does this have to do with me and my future?  What does my future look like?  What does the future hold for my family?  Will this disorder get worse?  No one can answer my questions.  I even asked Bishop Wittwer, who is a therapist, if he knew any 85 year olds with Bipolar?  He wondered why I would ask?  It’s because I promised my children that I would live to be 85 or at least long enough to be their worst nightmare.  J