I went to the NAMI group last night.  We talked about Bipolar.  It was interesting.  I have to admit, I am a little scared of the manic stage.  I don't know which one is better, the manic stage or the depression stage.  I am in the depression stage and that is where the suicidal thoughts come, but in the manic stage you do crazy things, you don't sleep, and you don't really remember doing the things that you did, or at least after your done and out of the stage you think "that was a little crazy thing to do".

Jed's class talked about suicide and the warning signs of suicide.  When we got home we discussed the questions that he will ask.  He then informed me that if I become suicidal he would take me to the hospital, I understand, so I informed him what hospital I would prefer to go to.  It would be LDS Hospital.

Who would have thought that I would be discussing this with my family?  I never would have believed it.